I'm sitting at my computer here, dieing to blog, about something anything, and oh the various topics come to mind, an inspiring song I sang in the shower this morning, the long conversation I had with my hubby last night, the movie we watched afterwards, I hear awesome lyrics, see the message written on the bathroom mirror for me to find and instantly blogging comes to mind...I've become addicted! HELP! or really don't because I love it. I've been reading so many blogs though and everyone has something special about theirs, some have tons of recipes Oh yummy! Some feel like I'm reading an interesting novel, Some are filled with beautiful pictures of children, pets, houses, decorating ideas...some comedic some just everday language some eloquent and I find myself thinking what should mine be like? What do I want people to feel when they read my blog, what feeling will they carry away, then there is uneeded pressure. I want to be real...I don't want to sit here changing all my words to be different sizes so it's more alluring. But I want to drag people in, so that they keep coming back...and then there will be interaction which is why I decided to blog. Interaction with a group of new people. A fresh start...it's quite invigorating!
So do I lay out my complaints of the day, my woes of yesterday, my hopes for my many tomorrows? Well maybe I could do a lit bit of both...I'm reminded of the scene in How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days when the one woman is talking about her articles she's writing and she says something about like foot fungus or something gross along those lines and than says "but it's surprisingly upbeat!" it makes me laugh...I will write a little bit about my woes but will try to make it "surprisingly upbeat!" for you. haha
Have you ever worked really hard on something to give away? You are so beyond excited, and the reaction you get is completely NOT what you were expecting...the use of the gift, no where near what was envisioned? Probably the same way my family felt last year when they gave me a keyboard, I thought for sure I would be able to pick it up faster than I did...it sat there collecting dust haunting me, yelling at me what an undisciplined person I was...it's got better though the dust has been cleaned off and me and the hubby actually played a song at the same time, me on keyboard him on guitar both singing...it was such a lovely moment. One of those ones where your soul just finds rest. ::happy sigh:: lovely! Anyway, as of right now I'm feeling a bit let down by the response of a gift and am getting over it...I mean it's theirs to do with it as they want and maybe next year it will be better for them than this year, who knows. I enjoyed working on it and that's what I'll focus on. =] [surprisingly upbeat right?, good]
Okay onto woes of my yesterdays...as of right now my husband and I are not on speaking terms with my parents. It really bums me out, b/c I have always had a great relationship with my parents. ALWAYS, those awful years where teenagers hate their parents, yeah I don't ever really remember having those "years" days where I didn't like them very much but not years. I usually talk to my mom twice a day on the phone and haven't spoke to her in a month now. I need prayer, I need some Holy Spirit intervention, I need healing and restoration in this relationship, b/c I can't just cut it off, although that is what my broken heart's instincts are. There must be a better way to respond to feeling rejected and actually being rejected, it doesn't matter which it is, there must be a graceful way to deal with such situations. Prayer is much appreciated...and I know in my heart it will all work out, I just need to learn and grow some more, those times are always exciting aren't they? lol At least I AM growing and not just standing still...I thank God for that.
The rest of the stuff, I might save another post as this is getting quite lengthy...haha but I will leave you some pics!
Me with my beautiful Coffee Cup this morning,
My awesome slippers that keep my constantly cold feet warm,
Happy Monday everyone! Have a GREAT week! =]